In Between Dreams

Aspiring writer. Fashion enthusiast. Looking to find the answers to the universe.

You won’t do it at the right time. You’ll be late. You’ll be early. You’ll get re-routed. You’ll get delayed. You’ll change your mind. You’ll change your heart. It’s not going to turn out the way you thought it would. It will be better.
Kate Moller


You and Me - Penny and the Quarters

Gets me every time. 

Blue Valentine

Cindy: What did it feel like when you fell in love? 
Grandma: Oh…oh dear, I don’t think I found it.
Cindy: Even with grandpa? 
Grandma: Maybe a little, in the beginning. He didn’t really have any regard for me as a person. You gotta be careful with that. You gotta be careful with the person you fall in love is worth it…to you. 
Cindy: I never want to be like my parents. I know they must’ve loved each other at one time right? To just get it all out of the way before they had me. How do you trust your feelings when they can just disappear like that? 
Grandma: I think the only way you can find out is to have the feeling. You’re a good person. You have the right to say I do trust. I do trust myself. 

so you think that you’re a failure, do you?
well, you probably are.
what’s wrong with that?
in the first place, if you’ve any sense at all you must have learned by now that we pay just as dearly for our triumphs as we do for our defeats.
go ahead and fail. but fail with wit, fail with grace, fail with style. a mediocre failure is as insufferable as a mediocre success.


- tom robbins

Sometimes I’m terrified of my heart; of its constant hunger for whatever it is it wants. The way it stops and starts.
Edgar Allen Poe


we do not grow absolutely, chronologically. we grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. we grow partially. we are relative. we are mature in one realm, childish in another. the past, the present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. we are made up of layers, cells, constellations.


- anais nin

You’re probably fucking up, but don’t worry about it, you’ve got time.

Sometimes, you’ll have all the feelings and feel nothing at the exact same time and you’ll think, “oh my god…is THIS the undiscovered dimension all humans throughout time have been feeling?” Then, you’ll crawl into your bed all charged and “wise” and suddenly, you’re on your phone debating ordering a pizza or calling your Mom, pretending that you have your shit together. Then you’ll meditate, do some yoga, talk to God and feel “okay” again, until you wake up and have to relearn the epiphanies you had the night before and then, you’ll feel bad for forgetting them. For not taking them seriously enough. For not making significant life-altering changes on your way to Starbucks, interspersed into your Daily Routine.

Sometimes, you’ll have everything you want right in front of you, but you won’t give it the time of day because you’re too afraid to let go of the things that validate you just enough to survive, while counteracting your true desires at the same time. Because, obviously, it’s too risky to flee. If you let go of one, what if nothing becomes of the other? Then you’ll wonder why you’re still hungry, clutching to the familiar. 

Sometimes, you’ll wake up. And each time, you hope you’ll stay awake. Until you accidentally fall asleep again…
Sometimes you’ll make a thousand excuses as to why you can’t. Why you can’t find love, why you can’t pursue your dreams, why you can’t find the time…then, while you’re surrendered, empty and ready to be filled again you’ll hear this strained voice tell you; 

“Move out of your own way.”

What they were really trying to say when they were telling you to “let go,” was “…kindly unclench your tiny fists that are holding that “thing” that you so want to get rid of, move out of your own way.”


It isn’t that you’re “too busy,” or that you don’t know what to do, it’s that you’ve decided to know the answers before living through the answers, move your stubbornness aside. Then see the result. In fact, don’t just move out of your own way… keep moving, in general. Move. Shift. Take steps.


Sometimes, you’ll be like an elephant who just wants to plant a pretty daisy amidst the rose garden and proceeds to fuck the whole operation up.


So much sense. Too much sense. Read here. 
These guys are all I need.

These guys are all I need.

Without fail. Words that resinate at every necessary moment. 

The best way is to simply surrender to Existence and allow it to take you wherever it takes you; it has never taken anybody into any wrong space. It always takes you back home.
Osho